I’m guessing it’s no secret that I have been very absent from the blogging world at large lately. The mono has me exhausted, my sciatica has kicked up so I’ve been in a great deal of pain, and my migraines have been pretty nasty as well.
Then there are the good things that have taken what little time and energy I do have. The Holiday Season: in addition to a marvelous Christmas, I celebrated my Babygirl’s 13th birthday by taking her to see Becoming Van Gogh at the Denver Art Museum (which was just – wow).
Being absent from the blogging world in general I can deal with. I’ve done it before, and people understand. But this time around, I have been very, very absent from Canvas as well. That’s something new for me, and I wasn’t feeling at all good about it. I haven’t been making any new posts, I haven’t even been commenting on the posts of our wonderful family! My mental health may be great, but I was stressing out and making myself crazy over that, let me tell you.
Until I noticed something. The sky was not falling, Chicken Little. This site was running beautifully, it hadn’t fallen apart at all in my absence!
I have spent most of my life with a deeply rooted inability to rely on other people. A classic control freak, it has only been within the past year that I’ve realized I don’t have to do it all on my own, that there are so many people who will help me. I guess I’m still learning that lesson as far as this blog is concerned.
So I’d like to start the new year the best way I can think to: by saying a great big thank you.
Thank you to my incredible Canvas family for your wonderful posts, and for your seemingly eternal patience with me behind-the-scenes as far as returning emails and implementation of even the smallest things. Thanks for sending me emails of love, support, well-wishes, and a whole other category of kindness that defies description.
Thank you to all of our readers who have commented, discussed, encouraged our family members, and shown your support and love. Even those who read but do not comment, I am grateful. You keep this project running beautifully, with each comment or “ghost” (a visit that shows up in the stats without comment).
People like you, the authors whom I know or am getting to know, the readers of this site remind me of why Lulu and I worked to get this project up and running to begin with, why we thought it might be worthwhile. Someone recently told me something that humbled me more than I can express, and I hope they won’t mind if I share it with you here:
[WordPress] lets you know how many people have read the Canvas posts, but it doesn’t tell you how many people have had their lives changed or improved through visiting Canvas. I am sure you will never know the number of lives you have touched through creating such a colourful canvas of authors.
In that same vein, I can’t imagine I could ever express to all of you how you have changed my life through this project. I wrote a post on Canvas’ one-year anniversary trying to explain it. . . Even if you read that post (which I hope you do) you will never know the degree to which each and every one of you have touched my life.
And I cannot tell you how amazingly grateful that makes me.
With an overflowing heart,
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So sorry you’ve been going through such a horrible sickness. I’ve read back on your posts and it sounds positively horrible.
Sending you strength and support,
The Quiet Borderline x
QB, you are absolutely amazing yourself, with everything you’re dealing with, taking time to show such support for others. If anyone has strength, it’s you, so I thank you for sending some my way, as well as your support, and what you have been doing here on Canvas.
Thank you from my heart.
What a sweet post! We’re all just following your lead, Ruby. I haven’t been as good about checking up back here or posting either – it’s been a tough fall/winter. I see that the site was nominated for a health activist award and I promoted that on my blog (along with my own nomination for hilarious health activist award – which surprised the heck out of me). And I’m so glad that person left the comment about this site helping others. I’m sure it’s very true. Kudos, and feel better soon.
Oh, and yes that is one of the most awesome gingerbread houses I’ve ever seen. 😀
Alice, you give me too much credit. You are all amazing people who do wonderful things in your own right, and I am so grateful. And even if you haven’t been around as often as you first were, you’ve still been very much around. I think everyone here can understand about taking time for tough times.
I saw that you promoted us — thank you! I think that’s a fitting nomination for you, Hilarious Health Activist. You do a wonderful job of using humor to speak about and deal with your mental health issues.
As to the gingerbread house — picture an eleven-year-old boy, a nine-year-old and a four-year-old girl (mostly the four-year-old), me covered in frosting (which wasn’t stiffened the way it should have been to hold the house together, so I had to), and Christmas Eve chaos all around. It was a great deal of fun. The house is still on my counter. Not sure what to do with it. . .
Glad you’re feeling better! Glad you’re posting again!
John, thank you so much. I still have a long recovery ahead (five or six months, probably), but I’m so grateful to know that the site is in good hands, and that wonderful readers like you are engaging and being so supportive!
I’m so sorry you have been dealing with so much illness and hope 2013 brings you better health. I’ve learned a lot from following A Canvas of the Minds. It really is a special blog!
Janet, it really means a lot for you to say such wonderful things about Canvas. You’ve been here (and with me on my personal blog) it seems from almost the beginning, and I am so humbled and gratified to know that we have produced content that you have stayed interested in.
As for me, I’m trying to make terms with the fact that I have some months of recovery ahead. But it’s just life, you know? 2013 has already brought me so many wonderful things, and it’s only six days old!
Thank you for reading and showing us your support. I’m very grateful.
Reblogged this on I Was Just Thinking. . . and commented:
I’m so grateful for all of my co-authors on Canvas, and for all of our readers, for doing what they do. Especially right now, when I can’t do any of it.
And thank you for giving us the opportunity to help paint the canvas!
SSG, I can’t tell you how grateful I am for all you have contributed. Your shades of paint always have such vibrancy, and such a pure honesty about them.
Thank you for being here, for supporting others, and for helping to make our Canvas such a beautiful one!
Absolutely agree with SSG!
Take care Ruby and truly sorry to hear you have been in so much pain. Hoping things improve soon.
You too have added something so very unique and honest to this project. I am so happy you have become a part of our family; you have a unique talent for pointing out things that I may miss, looking at this place in a different and beautiful way, perhaps because of your artist’s eyes, your newer presence here, or something else entirely.
Whatever it is, I thank you with all of my heart for sharing your story here, and for supporting others who are sharing theirs.
And thank you so much for your well-wishes. My doctors and I are working on some strategies, and I know I will get through. But I am grateful for your kind thoughts.
Ruby, I give thanks for people like you. People like me would be lost without you.
Likewise, DeeDee. I am so grateful for what you bring to this site, but I am even more grateful for what you have brought to my life.