I was messing around on Photoshop and made a little something. I did it quite a while ago but thought that I would share it here. I was wondering if anyone has the answer for me?
Thanks in advance!
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I have been reading your posts (on your personal blog) and thinking and thinking, and I finally happened upon something. Did you ever read the Dr. Seuss book, Oh, the Places You’ll Go!? There’s a part where he writes about The Waiting Place:
“You can get so confused
that you’ll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weird wildish space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place. . .
. . . for people just waiting.”
There’s a lot more to it, but in retrospect it really describes for me how I felt when I was absolutely awful. I didn’t want to take my own life, I just wanted to disappear completely, a lot like what you have described.
I don’t know how this helps you, except that as Dr. Seuss goes on to say,
That’s not for you!
Somehow you’ll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You’ll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.”
I know it seems like nonsense, and I guess it could be taken as just a different version of “Hang in there” or “You’ll make it through.” But I guess the only thing I can offer is what I have in my heart. I feel like you have a strength you can’t feel right now, but it’s there nonetheless. You have gotten through so much already. . . Your “bright places” and “Boom Bands” are out there yet. I know it.
Sounds brilliant Ruby. Thank you so much for the quotes.
I’ll really have to read this in full. It sounds very interesting,. I’m up for anything that could possibly help me so thanks for the tip. My dad says he’s going to look in his local bookshop to see if he can find something too.
I don’t know if anyone can answer that question for someone else, but I can definitely identify with the sentiment.
It’s interesting that you’ve used the image of railroad tracks to illustrate your dilemma. Parallel lines can go to infinity, yet never meet. So too the paradox of not wanting to live, yet not wanting to die. Sometimes the best we can do is to keep putting one foot in front of the other. At least the scenery is likely to change, and we will all at last come to the end of the movie that is our lives. I’m hoping, for myself and for you and for all of us, that the show will turn out to be at least worth the price of admission.
Amazing words Laura. Thank you.
I liked your analysis of my little artwork there.
I’ve somehow got to turn things around.
Thanks for your comment.
I love the image of the tracks leading off into the distance. Along with your woestion you pose. My intial response, wht is the first thing that pops into your mind kind of thing…
you asked, where are you going…I see the tracks as your vehichle for your journey, that the tracks lead you along the process of life, never ending, never finding the perect destintion because it is all about the journey. the where you’re going is the answer. its not going to be found in the destination. Which is i believe a false sense f happiness. that once THERE all is well.
tI think now. I think its pot holes, speed bumps, green trees, flower beds,pupies, and such all along the journey’s path…maybe even a long over night train trip on my journey’s way… that would be just so cool.
My answer for me is one day after the next is about what I make the journey be. This much I can master. One day at a time, knowing the path is always right there. This much I can have to keep the journey going. And how exciting the journey is.. so many unexpected beauties to see…
Loved your canvas by the way!
I have the answer. Take the path to having the desire to live. 🙂
I’ll work on that 🙂